People love to take what I say and turn it completely around. I give till my heart gives out and have nothing. I sit and silently suffer so I don’t worry them. There is really nothing they can do to help me mentally, either. I’m so sick of people, poisonous people in my life. They don’t seem to even comprehend just how much shit I’m going through still, they don’t seem to understand I have been wanting to blatantly kill myself. I can barely wrap my head around just how much my life has changed. I won’t kill myself because there’s people who need me here. However, there’s some people that have been seriously hurting me the last few months, and I’m absolutely fucking sick of it. I can still turn my life around, but if I ever did kill myself, I’d put their names down on my suicide note so they knew it was their fault.
Honestly, I’m filing for restraining orders shortly after I publish this post. I’m not going to let them further hurt me and fuck with my life.
They have had enough chances. I AM SO DONE.